Birthday is always the most solemn time of day for me, but it is also the most important. Perhaps the feeling of not being known and acknowledge is so lonesome and excruciating that it's nearly unbearable. It is ever so sad when the people you hope to see do something did not respond and rather, the people whom you just know or yet to know showing their affection towards you. Comparing a group whom you know for a very long time and those whom you just really got to know, the latter show much more appreciation and sincerelity towards what is so precious to me. It is both disappointing and sad... especially so to those whom I may be spending eternalty with... why?
That aside, I received lots of wonderous well wishes and gifts from many of my loved ones and friends thus far:) I could have cried if not for my putting up a front. I had KTV at Party World Orchard with Jemima, Wendy, Cindy, Kriz, Xiang Yun and Hisyam. Supposedly a gathering just to kill boredom, Xiang Yun and I received the most pleasant surprise when Wendy made a sudden entrance with 2 burning inferno... LOL... no wonder she was late. Thanks guys! It was a wonderful night although it seems a bit haphazard. Hahaha. I love the ring! Still figuring out how to make it fit... LOL.
The day after, 24/05, I had my official B-day celebration. It was at Meritus Marina Mandarin Hotel, Aquamarine Restaurant. It was unbelievable when I entered that place. So posh! So grand! OMGosh!!! I've never in my entire life felt so royalty~! So that's how it feels to be rich. Yoshii! I shall strive towards that goal! LOL! Ya, so, I had the grandest lunch buffet in Aquamarine with my relatives and siblings. It was a really touching moment. The deco, the food, the ambience!!! Way way way way (x100) AWESOME!!!
*emo*
I don't know why but I just feel sadness within all these happy moment... perhaps a realization that time is ticking away...
On a brighter tone, I want to list out the many things I received... I want to remember and treasure every last moment of it for as long as I live.
Dad gave me $100 Ang Bao. I was reluctant cos I knew how hard it was for him to earn tat sum. I love you, Papa.
Mum gave me an Ang Bao but I shouted at her rudely back then for some reason... only to found out she gave me $60. I almost wanted to scold her... because I didn't expect so much from her... I feel so guilty now... I just wanna say I'm sorry and I still love you even though I'm so mean and unreasonably bad-tempered and rude towards you and everything. Mummy, I'm really really sorry and I really really really love you. Thank you so much! I love you! *almost in tears*
Jesse (my lil' sis) gave me a paper weight. So cute:) Although it ain't much of a use. But so cute of her^ ^. Jesse, Jie Jie may not be able to play with you most of the time and scold you most of the time (so mean of me) but I want you to know I still love you. And very very much. Just don't be so naughty will ya? *Hugs*
Siqin a.k.a. Enma is so ready to buy anything for me which is within her means. Oh I love you! I'm so sorry that I should be blogging and disturbing you now that you are gonna take O'level tomorrow! But I just wanna say no matter how small the gift, it really doesn't matter. I am just happy that I have you around:) So sorry for the disturbance!!! *Love*
Grandma gave me an Ang Bao too. I don't know the content yet but I really love her (and her cooking!). I wish to spend more time with her if I may although I don't really talk to my Grandma, I love her very much, just the way she is. She look so frail sometimes... it hurts me when I can't do anything for her... Wai Poh, WO AI NI!!!
I know this is getting real mushy and perhaps unbearable but read or don't read if you will cos it doesn't matter in this juncture.
Er Jiu Mu & Jiu Jiu gave Ang Bao too! Dunno the sum yet but thank you and loves! A pity that Jenson didn't turn up for the buffet:(
Auntie Belinda (Da Jiu Mu) & Da Jiu Jiu treated me to the buffet plus a white gold crucifix pendent and earrings worth $195!!! OMGosh... Thank you! Love you all:)
My three Aunties, they dote me the most. I can never repay them in its entirety in this lifetime~! They are whom made my life possible. Supporting me financially, lovingly and spiritually. They are like the ideal Aunties in near extinction. Books... most of my clothes... Japanese lessons... food... etc!!! Its near uncountable. So much so that my thanks means nothing. I swear to become successful asap earning lots and repaying... I love you all... seriously... my future will never be possible without you all... *cries*
My friends of G9!!! Omgosh... it'll take eternalty to thank you guys out there! Thank you all! This may be less of a detailed description but seriously, you guys are equally appreciated and loved by me~! Love the ring, once again:)
And to end it all off, I want to thank the rest. Perhaps your name is not mentioned but I want to let you know that as long as you are part of my fleeting memory or is ever in my life, you are appreciated. No one is left out.
To keep a fleeting memory of the times I treasured...
... this is life.
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