Sunday, June 8, 2008

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Skin Culture Peel.


Check out my complete peel article by clicking on the image above!

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Sunday, June 1, 2008

きれいな顔 Pt.2

http://www.skincultureusa.com
(Read the link and you'll understand...)

Day 2:

08:20PM --> Apply the second jar of peel onto face. The pain is pretty bad. Decide to lie on bed. Face turning even redder from chemical reaction.

09:50AM --> Remove entire content of peel from face with applicator. Remove excess peel by rubbing in with Vaseline and removing with tissue. Face gets redder and tighter.

Intermission:

03:43PM --> Skin feels very tight after rinsing with warm then cold water. Finds difficulty in opening my mouth wide. Botox on the double. Entire face looks tan and shiny.

Day 3:

08:20PM --> Apply third pot of peel on face. The smell is starting to get on my nerves. Same pain. Face feels like an aftermath of a battlezone. Can't wait for the fourth jar to end so that my face may start peeling.

Intermission:

11:30AM --> Wash my face as usual without soap. I feel like a red indian. No longer the snow white I used to be. For now. My face is so tight that one tiny smile will rip the skin apart.



Friday, May 30, 2008

きれいな顔 Pt.1

http://www.skincultureusa.com
(Read the link and you'll understand...)

Day 1:

10:30PM --> Apply the entire jar of peel onto face. Stinging, burning feeling on face. A bit unbearable. Face turning red from chemical reaction.

12:00AM --> Remove entire content of peel from face with applicator. Remove excess peel by rubbing in with Vaseline and removing with tissue. Face starts to feel slightly tight and red.

Intermission:

09:30AM --> Skin feels tight after rinsing with warm then cold water. Finds difficulty in opening my mouth wide. Is this how Botox feels like? Entire face feels as though I had tied a very tight ponytail behind my head.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Birthday.

Tomorrow will be my 21st year of existence on earth at exactly 0015hrs. I want to give thanks to those who appreciated my presence thus far. I felt loved. Be it through the means of giving, some simple gestures or even a word of well wishes, I love you all.

Birthday is always the most solemn time of day for me, but it is also the most important. Perhaps the feeling of not being known and acknowledge is so lonesome and excruciating that it's nearly unbearable. It is ever so sad when the people you hope to see do something did not respond and rather, the people whom you just know or yet to know showing their affection towards you. Comparing a group whom you know for a very long time and those whom you just really got to know, the latter show much more appreciation and sincerelity towards what is so precious to me. It is both disappointing and sad... especially so to those whom I may be spending eternalty with... why?

That aside, I received lots of wonderous well wishes and gifts from many of my loved ones and friends thus far:) I could have cried if not for my putting up a front. I had KTV at Party World Orchard with Jemima, Wendy, Cindy, Kriz, Xiang Yun and Hisyam. Supposedly a gathering just to kill boredom, Xiang Yun and I received the most pleasant surprise when Wendy made a sudden entrance with 2 burning inferno... LOL... no wonder she was late. Thanks guys! It was a wonderful night although it seems a bit haphazard. Hahaha. I love the ring! Still figuring out how to make it fit... LOL.

The day after, 24/05, I had my official B-day celebration. It was at Meritus Marina Mandarin Hotel, Aquamarine Restaurant. It was unbelievable when I entered that place. So posh! So grand! OMGosh!!! I've never in my entire life felt so royalty~! So that's how it feels to be rich. Yoshii! I shall strive towards that goal! LOL! Ya, so, I had the grandest lunch buffet in Aquamarine with my relatives and siblings. It was a really touching moment. The deco, the food, the ambience!!! Way way way way (x100) AWESOME!!!

*emo*

I don't know why but I just feel sadness within all these happy moment... perhaps a realization that time is ticking away...

On a brighter tone, I want to list out the many things I received... I want to remember and treasure every last moment of it for as long as I live.

Dad gave me $100 Ang Bao. I was reluctant cos I knew how hard it was for him to earn tat sum. I love you, Papa.

Mum gave me an Ang Bao but I shouted at her rudely back then for some reason... only to found out she gave me $60. I almost wanted to scold her... because I didn't expect so much from her... I feel so guilty now... I just wanna say I'm sorry and I still love you even though I'm so mean and unreasonably bad-tempered and rude towards you and everything. Mummy, I'm really really sorry and I really really really love you. Thank you so much! I love you! *almost in tears*

Jesse (my lil' sis) gave me a paper weight. So cute:) Although it ain't much of a use. But so cute of her^ ^. Jesse, Jie Jie may not be able to play with you most of the time and scold you most of the time (so mean of me) but I want you to know I still love you. And very very much. Just don't be so naughty will ya? *Hugs*

Siqin a.k.a. Enma is so ready to buy anything for me which is within her means. Oh I love you! I'm so sorry that I should be blogging and disturbing you now that you are gonna take O'level tomorrow! But I just wanna say no matter how small the gift, it really doesn't matter. I am just happy that I have you around:) So sorry for the disturbance!!! *Love*

Grandma gave me an Ang Bao too. I don't know the content yet but I really love her (and her cooking!). I wish to spend more time with her if I may although I don't really talk to my Grandma, I love her very much, just the way she is. She look so frail sometimes... it hurts me when I can't do anything for her... Wai Poh, WO AI NI!!!

I know this is getting real mushy and perhaps unbearable but read or don't read if you will cos it doesn't matter in this juncture.

Er Jiu Mu & Jiu Jiu gave Ang Bao too! Dunno the sum yet but thank you and loves! A pity that Jenson didn't turn up for the buffet:(

Auntie Belinda (Da Jiu Mu) & Da Jiu Jiu treated me to the buffet plus a white gold crucifix pendent and earrings worth $195!!! OMGosh... Thank you! Love you all:)

My three Aunties, they dote me the most. I can never repay them in its entirety in this lifetime~! They are whom made my life possible. Supporting me financially, lovingly and spiritually. They are like the ideal Aunties in near extinction. Books... most of my clothes... Japanese lessons... food... etc!!! Its near uncountable. So much so that my thanks means nothing. I swear to become successful asap earning lots and repaying... I love you all... seriously... my future will never be possible without you all... *cries*

My friends of G9!!! Omgosh... it'll take eternalty to thank you guys out there! Thank you all! This may be less of a detailed description but seriously, you guys are equally appreciated and loved by me~! Love the ring, once again:)

And to end it all off, I want to thank the rest. Perhaps your name is not mentioned but I want to let you know that as long as you are part of my fleeting memory or is ever in my life, you are appreciated. No one is left out.

To keep a fleeting memory of the times I treasured...

... this is life.


Friday, May 23, 2008

Smell.

My Mum attempts to poison me every time she sprays herbicide on the plants (at the corridor). It kills. My nose catches the slightest scent back in my room and I will wake up with a jolt. It is very disturbing and annoying. Not only does it smells strong, it makes my throat and eyes real uncomfortable. This acute sense makes it even more unbearable as though I have dunk my nose into a bottle of herbicide.

The next big thing I hate is the train. I can smell EVERYONE. Each and every commuters with their odour... especially of those who do not
bathe as frequent... Each time I board the train, I'll have this fear of suffocating on my seat. It's true, although it may sound absurd. The smelling is so bad that I'll feel sick after sometime if I don't stop myself from breathing every now and then. I hate my nose... or whatever it is that is making me catch every whif of smell in the air...


Right now, supposedly, I should still be on my bed sleeping. Instead, I am awaken, rudely awaken, by that smell again. This is the bloody
third time my Mum sprayed that 'thing', ever since she got her pot of new plant. If the plant don't die of the herbicide, I think I will. If not, my hamsters will. Fuck. To hell with the disgusting smell already!

Today is going to be a less boring day (excluding homicide). Later in the afternoon, I will be visiting my sister's teacher for 'Meet-the- Parent' session. Ya. it's puzzeling as to why I am the one meeting the form teacher whereas my Mum sits at home doing nothing. Hmmm... I wonder what will her teacher say when he sees me in Visual drags... Shocked? Stunned?? Utter amazement??? That will be pretty interesting. I hope he don't bore me with the rethorical stuff... I'm there to play the role, not to take it but well, I'll definitely do whatever I may to help my sis with her studies.

Commencing a lil' later at night, it will be... KTV!!! Yoohoo!!! I guess I have been camping in my room for too long and KTV sounds really good for starter. LOL. Singing always make me think of bands. One of my silly dreams to become a vocalist of an EMO J-rock or Visual band.
Then this silly dream of mine will make me think of how my voice is not up to par as yet... which links to yet another reverie of I gotta get a
nose-cum-eyes job to make myself even more perfect than I am now... that is, if I AM now...

The artificiality of cosmetic surgery is so tempting at times. I am still fully mesmerized by Gackt even thought I fully understand that more than 70% of his face is plastic. Gackt is LOVE~! I will only find satisfaction when I'm perfect. Contentment is not the fulfilment of a want or need but the realization of what I already possess... you see, I don't possess any. Haha. Therefore I am never contented. Not yet, at least.

As I type all these, that irksome smell still lingers in my room. My stomach is so making the weird churning act now...

...gotta deploy a mission to discard that poisonous stench one day...


Monday, May 19, 2008

Repression.


The repression in my heart for vengence... in a constant turmoil of questioning to life.

Recently, my faith has been in a toggle... I blow my top ever so mercilessly. A tiny shove from the rear may well uncap the pressure in me. I got to let loose a little before I start hurting people.

On a lighter tone, I am inspired by a recent discovery of a tune which lingers in me ever so frequently. It speaks of my current emotion. It interest me enough to want to play it on the piano as a gift for myself; Silent Hill 2 - Promise (Reprise).

Akira Yamaoka is legend. I can never figure how he got such inspiration from, this dark and repressed nightmare of his... as though a reflection of the turmoil in his childhood (if it really is such!).

His songs, spine-chilly and grotesque in a surreal yet innocent way...

Well, what can I say?

Enjoy the melancholy...


Saturday, May 17, 2008

熱い。

今晩はすごく熱いだ。今、叔母さんたちの家で住んでいるよ。何もできない。。。つまらない~!

このBLOGは、おれに見て、日本語でかく。

お誕生日にどうしおかな。。。みんな覚える?忘れる?解からない。。。

友達におれの誕生日に覚えるのは無理じゃ。。。

誕生日を覚えるといいんですけど。

じゃ、お休み。。。

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Fear.

Sometimes I do really wish my Birthday never come...




...the passing of time...




...the disappointment...




...the indifference...




...being a step closer to my goal...yet seem so unfulfilled...




...many things flashing in my mind...




...have I lived my life the way I wanted yet...?...




...or have I been wasting away my past 20 years...?...




...I've only a life to live...




...have I live up to it as yet...?...




...I am still so far off...




...I fear...






































...I fear... ...




Sunday, May 11, 2008

Wishlist.

What, is the point of a wishlist when it can never be fulfilled...?

Hmmm...







































...beats me.

U for Ugly.

Recently I purchased a facial system from the net. A pretty brave attempt I dare say. The wait for the parcel to arrive is excruciating... Prolly becos' its an expensive item. Sigh. Well, it also goes to say that I dun do online purchase often. Not something which I really enjoy doing. I prefer things that I can get then and there in exchange for cash. It feels better that way. At least it's guarenteed security.

Just a bit of what I purchased - a facial system which will peel off multiple layers of dead skin from my face... force-exfoliation I call it. My face exfoliates aint no more...

New skin!!! An anticipation. Hahahaha!

Some japanese lady have been constantly posting links to porn sites...in my comment box *A bit of a digression here* and if I didnt translate it wrongly, she's like the mama-san of the site trying to lure girls in to do pornography and hand jobs etc... a seriously common affair in Japan but still a cultural shock to many. Not as innocent anymore eh? Japanese...haha...they are so weird sometimes...

My hair's in a mess now. Everything's wrong. The bangs suck, the color is wrong (ever since the cut) and I look real shabby in it.

WHERE"S MY SCENE HAIR~??!! OMGosh...

...so meaningless now tat I aint looking the way it should...

...hope the peel'll cheer me up.

<.<

>.>

*flops dead*


Wednesday, April 30, 2008

>8D

SPAM this blog.










I dare you.

Whoa.

Just got back from Aloha Changi Chalet H...




...IT'S AWESOME-NESS!!!





Such pleasure to be with Group 9 (14 ppl...almost complete la...)~!




Even though this may be the last unite...


...the SHOUTERS SPIRIT shall forever be in us all!!!!!


This calls for another gathering. HAHAHAHAHA!


Lets make it an oath that we will always be the most loving group, the most united group, the most remembered and most get-together group.

AMEN.



ROCK ON, GROUP 9 SHOUTERS!!!


Sunday, April 20, 2008

Pooh-pooh

I never knew British English can be tat interesting. Pooh-pooh, is the reaction you get when your idea is undesirable...or so to speak. Like...a rejection to a suggestion? Whatever. I'm feeling very EMO lately...so...even blogging itself is a streneous thing to do...

...wat's more, I know not much people would drop by anyway...

...perhaps I'm just despo for attention.

Ok, watever.




Victorian Literature is so affecting me now.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Silence.

Somehow, my PC just turned dumb. No sound, nothing. Even the earphones failed. I wonder what I am gonna do without the decibels... especially when I can finally get to the net to watch my much anticipated 'Jack the Ripper - from Hell'.




Sigh.





Life...





...with its irksome trials.






Now, feast your eyes on Gackt to destress...






Friday, March 21, 2008

On Second Thought...

You lucky bit*hes and bast*rds! I've made this decision of a lifetime to post my foundation drawings (it's time too, you bit*ch). Feast your eyes on them but don't drool. LOL.









I have an obsession for arses, boobs and tits. Beat me.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

I'm back, baby!

I know that I've not been diligant in my blogging.


Anyway, shit happens. And well, I've been hella busy recently. Can say that I was too busy to even boot the PC. Valentine was great although It's like prehistoric?! Had a very wonderful time with a wonderful guy (no, I'm not attached -.-) in a shockingly and unexpectedly posh Japanese Yakitori Restaurant. Being in that restaurant was somewhat unplanned and uncalled for. We weren't really prepared for the price there. Whichever reason it was (i might as well cut short in the details), a pretty brave attempt to test it all out (I meant the food). Had some laughs, Oohs and Aahs, lotsa good foodies (UMAI!!! The egg pudding was heavenly!) and of course, not forgetting the one most important stuff - photographs, lotsa em'!


Sadly, the photos ain't under my care so... I won't be able to show em'. GOMEN NE!
Irregardless, I'll show some totally irrelevant ones anyway:




^ HI-CHEW and Puccho from Bugis Junction 'OKASHI' - SWEET!


^ A gift from the Restaurant Manager with my 'date''s msg to me. LOL.




^ A kawaii gift from my Foundation Drawing Teacher. So act cute la! Hehe =p



The box of chocolate was a pretty weird experience. I guess we stayed in the restaurant too long (until it was about to close) that the manager had to find means to chase us out. LOL. What can I say?! The food there were too expensive and delicious for us to simply gobble them up without enjoying every morsel slowly...

TAJIMAYA Japanese Charcoal Grill Yakiniku at VIVO. You've gotta go there and at least savour it once to considered that you've had really lived a meaningful enough life on earth. The set menus on Valentine's Day is worth all the expenses!!! Great wine, great yakitori and even greater dessert!!! Oh I'm so gonna drool now~! Hahaha. I sounded so like a foodie connoisseur. LOL!

Can't wait to get hold of the photos!

Jya!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Flies;Needs;Pics?

Yesterday while having brunch in Canteen 2, I had a bizzare encounter. Flies are so scary nowadays! Well, I bought a plate of Wanton Mee and was happily eating away with my bunch of friends when this particular diehard fly decided to nest on my noodles. Normally, flies will just buzz off on instinct when you try to swap at them but...THIS FLY DON'T! I took the chopstick and waved at it, flip my noodles up and down, almost did a whipping stun with my noodles and the fly just won't budge!!! SICK! I had no choice but to poke it with my finger and push it away from my plate and onto the table. Apparently, either the fly had BRADY reflexes or...boy, this is just too plain weird. Alright, what did I do next? I continued with my noodles (Eww...) cos I was too hungry to care. What's more, my FDN Teacher came and purposely mixed my noodles even more thorough than what was done when having the episode with the fly. Oh well.

~

Am doing my FDN 2D assignment now and found that my lappy is real laggy especially when I'm dealing with image editing. *SIGH* If only I have a MAC. No, I really need to get a MAC, whenever that will be. And of course, I had a hard time drawing with my fingers too (on the touchpad)... I WANNA INTUOS TABLET!!! Why is it that the stuff I always need are way off my budget? Why? WHY?!?
~
Wanted to upload some pics but the whole system hung... Boy, what a bother!


Sunday, January 13, 2008

Chindogu

Now this is something worth a laugh.

http://pingmag.jp/2008/01/11/chindougu/

I seriously love the eyedrop aid. LOL

CRAP THAT HAIR.

DIE. I'm sick of my hair already. What am I gonna do???





I was thinking maybe I should really really bleach my hair an even paler shade of blonde...somewhat like...




THIS?!?

Any suggestions or whatsoever?

AND perhaps, go for a round of rebonding to make em' freakingly straight.

HOW? HOW??

TELL ME WHAT TO DO PPL!!!

*Depressed*

Monday, January 7, 2008

New Year, New Hair.








Don't really like the bleached result. I'm gonna bleach it even lighter. Hate the orange tint.
>:(


Friday, January 4, 2008

THE START OF A NEW YEAR

Time really flies. Sigh. And I'm turning 21 in due time. Realized I'm still single so... somebody PLEASE DATE ME!

Speaking of which, I remembered knowing this guy who'd always go to the movies every single week - every single date. Not that movies are bad but... HEY! IF U WANT ME TO WATCH A MOVIE FOR ALL THAT MATTERS WITH U, AT LEAST PAY FOR MY TICKET(S)!!!
Well, I guessed I never liked him anyway - some NS guy who was kind of desperate, come to think of it now...saw him with a new girl only a week after the 'silent farewell'. I don't call him my BF because I'd never thought of him as one from the start. And I did not approve of this relationship to start with. He...was just not my type...not then, not now and never. I don't like guys who expect their girls to call every single night just to hear them crap about NS. YEAH. You get my point, all girls out there. And I don't like guys to get all jittery over their girls just because they choose not to call their guys for once. That was what happened to me. I was real sick of hearing him blabber and the worst thing was, my phone bill hit a hundred thanks to those meaningless chitchats...No, I shouldn't even call it chitchat, it was such a one way thing. Oh nvm.

Anyway, since this is a new year AND a new beginning for me, I can't possibly forget my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION. This year, I strive to be prettier, cooler, more influential, even better in my drawing skills, more unique, a better shepherd to my sheeps, slimmer in my hips and thighs, make even more friends, love my friends even more and not forgetting love my family and relatives more and more. I really hope all these come to pass when I see this entry again in the year 2009...and oh...am gonna be 22...DAMN.

But most importantly, I will want to have a breakthrough in my 2008 life. Becoming famous? Perhaps. Always daydreaming about being a vocalist in a Visual Kei Band... WTH.

Oh prince charming...wherever you are, you'll have to confess first because I'm a shy shy girl...

...bleah.